How long does it take us to learn something!??!! DUH!!!!

Lately I’ve been saying this a lot:  I’ll do my best with I can control, the rest, I will let go and let God. 

What a load off my back it feels when I really mean it and I can do this and just focus on what I can really do and leave the rest to God. 

My lesson:  Why did I wait so long to do this??!?!?!  DUH!!!!! 

Baby steps... .

Baby steps and celebrating small victories every 15 minutes!!!! 

I remember once reading the concept of time and for how some people 1 hour compares to 15 seconds for others.  Well, my turn to say, let's celebrate every 15 minutes because, after every 15 minutes I'm closer to reaching my goal for today: this big baby step!!!!

Isn't this the way to FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT a battle!?!?!?!? 

My lesson:  be patient, love your baby steps, celebrate all small victories!!!!

To have or not to have....

Why should I focus and dwell on what I DON'T HAVE when I have SO MUCH to focus and enjoy on what I DO HAVE?!??!?!?!

How easy it is to understand that concept, is it?!?!?!?

Smelly behaviors?

I was just thinking about how funny some circumstances are.   The first week after surgery, the question of the day (every day by the way!) was: “Have you passed gas?” 

The first time the nurse asked me that I told her,

“No!, I have a roommate! I cannot do that or shouldn’t do that!”

“Oh no no,” the nurse said, “here, we encourage that, we want you to pass gas!”

Well, my timing is impeccable!  So, very next day a very nice gentleman took me downstairs for X rays, and of course, as soon as he helped me out of my bed, I PASSED GAS!!!!  Not ONE! A FEW!!!

Immediately I apologize and I said, “Sorry, THEY encourage this behavior here!!!”

Now I think how fast we are usually to blame someone else.  I should’ve said:

“YES MAN! That’s my gas and I’m very proud of it! Although it took some time…. Hmm…

My lesson: own your behaviors even if they smell!!!!!

Fight, Fight, Fight

Everybody has been telling me YEAH, you can fight this one! YEAH, kick some ass! YEAH, you go girl!  And it's wonderful to have all this cheering with you and you feel so good going to the battle. 
And so the battle started and I was so ready for it.  Like Little Red Riding Hood, with my basket full of snacks for the length of the treatment, and a bag full of CDs to listen to, thanks to a dear angelical GG friend, books to read, HECK, I was ready for the battle!!!!!  (and my poor hubby carrying everything of course!) :) 
In my mind.... FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT.... so, bring it on!!!   Well, I guess someone forgot to send an email to my body since the moment the treatment started my body rejected it.   All of a sudden I could see black dots everywhere, (by the way, really nice design for a beautiful dress), the room started spinning like crazy, I needed to put my seatbelt on!  And I remember saying to the nurse: One moment please!
Hee Hee! Little did I know I was having a bad reaction to the medicine.  The nurse stopped it right away and somebody please turn the switch off so the room stops spinning!
My lesson of the day.... YES, I will FIGHT, FIGHT, FIGHT, and there might be some obstacles and these obstacles are only going to add more to my story. 
So, we'll try next week again, with the same attitude, big smile, and all the cheering from friends and family with me, and my hubby carrying my picnic basket again!  Because we FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT the battles that come our way.  OH YEAH BABY!!!!

So this morning I was thinking, I better start getting used to the idea of being different now.... Hmmm... I'm different???..... what's the definition of different anyways?  Different than what?!?!?!  than who?!?!?! Aren't we all different anyways?!?!?!?! 
I know this sounds cheesy but, aren't we all different and unique in so many ways?!?!?!  So, I'm just in my own way, a person with more stories to tell - YEAH!!!! Just part of the journey and the adventure. 
And that's the way I'm going to see all this experience.  Packing stories to share and to relate to and to laugh together, because, when we live life to the fullest, we cannot deny it that.... LIFE IS WONDERFUL and every day, every moment, is part of this wonderful life.

"Don't just let things happen, Make them happen"
-Colochita